For the last 6 weeks I have not been blogging. I’ve had so many blog thoughts rush through my head and emotions shoot through my heart, but my time has not allowed me the freedom to divide my interests. Single focused, hand to the plow dedication, I have been unapologetically given to the mission at hand.
It began with a week of intense Servant Leadership Training in Tulsa, then another week of Discipleship Equipping in Dallas, then another 3 weeks of intense Ministry among the unreached in West Africa. Upon returning from Africa it has been non stop transition from stepping into a new ministry role to unpacking (and more unpacking, and more unpacking……get the picture???), and….a house FULL of boxes! Honestly, I’m a bit tired.
I know I’m tired because I get excited at the thought of crawling into bed at night. My body is still adjusting to a new time zone but my heart, well it never fully adjusts.
I feel homesick for the familiar, comforted by schedules, and longing for a place, that doesn’t, and in all reality, has never existed.
You see, Jesus never promised us a life of familiarity and routine. He DID, however, promise us something even more comforting…..Himself.
In Him, I find rest. In Him, I find familiarity. In Him, I find the water for my thirsty soul. In Him, I am not tired anymore.
Isn’t it amazing that in a 6 week period of time that we can literally swing from a spiritual high to a spiritual valley in a matter of moments? For weeks I have seen God move in prayer, show up in Muslim’s dreams, order my steps right into a Divine Encounter, and awaken dead hearts to His gospel truth; then, in a matter of moments, I’m asking —Where Did HE Go?
Truth is, He hasn’t gone anywhere, I have. My expectation and attention has shifted. Life is happening and instead of all my focus being on what He is doing, I’m divided on what I must do to get things done.
So I stop. I pray. I wait. I must re-engage with His Spirit and step behind His Leadership.
How about you? How are you doing on allowing Him to Lead?
So often we see Him part the Red Sea in our midst, then grumble over the ‘type’ of manna we are provided on the other side. We rush ahead and begin, ‘doing’ the ministry instead of ‘being’ a part of the ministry.
I don’t know about you, but I’m done with ‘Post Mission Field Blues’… or ‘Post Camp’, or ‘Post Mountaintop’, or ‘Post Anything’!!! I’m stepping back into Him. He has promised in His Word His Presence, His Guidance, His Provision, His Grace,……HIMSELF.
I’m stepping back into HIM.
I pray today as you read this, that you take that step too. You don’t have to return from the mission field to experience a sense of loss. Simply doing life, without Him Central, throws us all into a funk. So, today I pray you will stop doing and start sitting. — IN HIM.
“Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” Colossians 3:1-3